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Today I started cleaning out my whole room to get ready for when I leave to attend the Y!
After five hours of organizing and throwing tons of stuff away I had managed to get through 1/4 of my room!
Insane, I know.
Well, as I rummaged through old letters and pictures I've kept over the years I found the poem "Footprints in the Sand"
I, unfortunately, have no idea where I placed it so I can't post it but if you haven't read it- LOOK IT UP! You will NOT regret it!!
When I finished reading it, once again for the millionth time, I came to the realization that there were tears in my eyes.
(I haven't been writing on this blog as much as I have wanted to because like I had previously stated I am still in recovery. It's still a day to day challenge to make sure I get all the food I need and not over due it with the exercise. So for now that is my main priority; to fully recover.)
The love and grace I felt after reading that poem was astounding.
I know that God lives. That He is real and that He not only loves but adores each and everyone of us!
Many of my close friends are getting ready to leave on a mission in the next month or so and it brings me sooo much joy to know they are making right choices and doing well in life.
Ever since I was 11, my plan had always been to serve a mission as soon as I could- my 19th birthday. I turn 19 this December. But unfortunately I will not be able to leave on my 19th birthday because of these health problems I've had to deal with recently and that breaks my heart in more ways than you can imagine.
All I have ever wanted was to give unto others what I was blessed with my whole life and that's the true gospel of Jesus Christ. I don't understand why this is the path my life needs to take but I know that Heavenly Father knows me better than I know myself. He knows why my mission must be put off for a couple of months. As hard as it is to accept that I also realize its probably for the best- that way I can do one year at BYU before I leave.
Like the poem "Footprints in the Sand" says- Heavenly Father is not only by our sides 24/7 but he carries us when the trials and tribulations become too hard to bare.