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About two weeks ago I graduated from High School.
Believe it or not it still hasn't hit me yet.
I don't think it really will until I'm all packed up ready to go to Utah.
Any who, it wasn't until I sat in front of a packet stadium at Kingsburg High School dressed in my cap and gown when I thought "Where did the time go?"
It was then that I realized we need to embrace each moment we're given. We are all so short on time and many times we let that time pass us by..
This past year, (Senior Year) many times is seen as the end- yet to me it's merely a beginning. Many of us are so scared but too shy to admit it. We are scared of what the future might or might not hold for us.
After graduation we no longer have the security of coming back to our little small town and being with people we've known most if not all of our lives. Just like you everyone around you is embarking on their own journey; they're all starting their lives.
Over these last four years we had many first, we met people that broke our hearts, and we met others that became just like family, we have laughed until we cried, and cried until laughter was the only thing bringing us out of our rut. Every moment, every memory we've shared with these people has been what's shaped us into the person we are today. We are bits and pieces of everyone we've come in contact with.
Although my mind races in excitement of what BYU holds for me, my heart cries in the fear of leaving all of these people behind- it cries in the fear of the unknown.
My soul on the other hand rests in peace. It rests in a calmness knowing that Heavenly Father knows what my future holds. After all He knows me better than I know myself.
(Some not so happy past moments)
Three years ago if you would have asked me where I saw myself at 18 I would have gaped at you in disbelief and probably rolled my eyes because I never saw myself turning 18- let alone graduating. These past few years in high school have been a real struggle for me...
BUT
(a now more happy moment)
due to my Heavenly Father's love and patience I have overcome some very dark nights. It was through that love and grace where I started to see a future for myself.
*Loving yourself is not an easy thing to do by any means but the effects of it are very rewarding*
I am now very very very thankful for the life I live. I am thankful for my family and for every person that has impacted my life. After all, I am merely bits and pieces of them all.